The movie is over, yet the screening reels on through your eyes – you’ve left

the cinema, but you’re still seeing ‘in’ graceful Ozu, or ‘in’ kindly Kore-Eda,

or in pleats, in blood, or plain rose; you’re passing by nondescript shopfronts

now floodlit in scarlet, thanks purely to Coutard’s lens, or another occasion’s

pearly sorrow has slicked down these pavements where men lope in torrents

of rain that could flatten that one bar they want – it must be a plywood prop.

In the dark you’d been watching a storm that will not die down in the light.

So how come a film’s world-outlook keeps radiating from your own eyeballs,

not its set, least of all its ideas – but its whole ‘feel’, its tinge or angles? Louise

flicked her bob until it refashioned your mop to shine by the end of Beggars

of Life – as in Burnett’s Killer of Sheep, an ‘of’ in the title holds promise –

you too are ‘of’ your last-viewed movie, generously unspooling outside itself

while subtitles flash up unasked, like Farhadi’s captions on judgment: ‘Each

side wants to understand the other but their situation compels them to fight’.

You wish. Heels pivot, or are clicked in the elongated spans between people.

Your feet were slipped into others’ seamed nylons, then eased into kid shoes.

It was me-too in La Notte, and that dawn grew milky sour. Maybe Martel’s

lucid camera has cornered you, shut tight in her car, with rolled-up windows

bouncing the sunlight so inward you’d scarcely see out, bar a blurry column

of what might be human figures. ‘Grief’ is too bland a word, and I’ve always

found it irritating, all the more so since he died, but I couldn’t really say why;

although, movie-loving spectator, I can read your diagnosis of why, embossed

in bold on your face. Return to us, you subtler Jeanne Moreau, ripe doubter;

sulk hotly on the 19 bus nudging its way through a right smog of implication.

Step forth, doe-eyed Monica, let your wide freckled cheekbones gleam again
out of your shadows. But that beauty’s long sunk in her aching monochrome.

Brilliantine’d heads are still hauling the length of canals of string vests – while

no probation officer will lecture you again: ‘a working-class man would have

battered you, you should be thankful he’s only trying to remove the children.’

We’ll have no more of ‘in love’, though the moon be, &c. The incensed air looms

rich with pondering saxes – to be ‘confessional’ must mean there’s something
to confess, but what is that thing’s true name? Nico, chanteuse remixed velvety,

remarked ‘I wasn’t happy when I was beautiful’. It’s you who are in the wrong,

you who were both born in it, and born into it. But that’s wrong, too. Hell-bent

on thinking the best of others, who might yet turn out to be kind, you wouldn’t

‘draw the consequences’ – wanting no consequences but reliable love. Twilight

sags blue on the terrace, the clinks of the party dim as long-lashed looks pan out

across olive groves branched like squirrel-hair brushes, handy enough for rouge;

neither ‘the male’ nor the female gaze, but the gaze of the movie itself, suffusing

your vision until it wears off, after loaning its clips of ten divine-enough minutes.

Then back my duller daily outlook comes. I’ll fight against letting it blanket me

in its colourised rereleases of the out-of-the-blue cruelty of someone I’d trusted –

I’ve sat through that movie before, too often; have lain on its cutting-room floor.

Still, here is Resnais, or filmic joy. It is good to be old, though it’s perilous.

Donate to Poetry London

Be a part of the next 100 issues

To donate, please click on the button below, or send a cheque payable to ‘Poetry London’ to Poetry London, Goldsmiths, University of London, New Cross, London, SE14 6NW, UK.

Donate to Poetry London today

Discover more from this issue…

Summer 2019

Issue 93

Buy the Summer 2019 issue

Subscribe to Poetry London

Subscribe today!