Neon Void by Dorothea Lasky
I lost the will to live
Or I never had it
St Anthony of Padua
St Anthony the ascetic in the desert
St Antonio’s
The dark wood where I never had it
Shaking a fist with a stick
At the Death Lions
And the ants in the cracks of the floor
I lost the will to live or I never had it
Hot pink, neon pink
Yellow star, rising over the 3am moon
Sunlit, but not knowing so
Everything so inherently mauve
Incredible death
Better than sex
So incredibly death
With your head off
Tight and cold
And saying absolutely nothing
What’s better than death
The most wonderfully pointless thing to do
The whole thing
The whole thing
The whole thing’s better than death
All this inappropriate love
Cries in the night
But I won’t answer them